I dont do this Journal thing alot..but i have nothing better to do with my time so here I go.
For the past couple of days i have been feeling really down, I have lost two really good friends one who I was going out with and the other was a long time friend. But just my luck shit happens turns out my friend was gunning 4 my gf the hole time I was going out with her...I would say more but im not up 4 talking all about that again ill just say it didnt end well.
Back to feeling down and alone its just when I look at all my friends they all have really good relationships with their gf/bf and I look at what I have..nothing..tho I have the best friends any1 can ask for but thats all they are just friends.
I have been trying to go out with a really good friend of mine but I fear its a lost cause for she leads me on but when I ask if she ever wants to do anything she comes up with an excuse, if it were any other girl i wouldnt give shit and move on but sadly here I am still trying, pathetic is it not?.
The best was the pick me up that my friend gave me yesterday X_X tho its not his fault he was just in a happy mood I guess cuz hes prob going to bang lot of chicks this summer...Fucking lifeguards their all cocky, But anyways I didnt tell him that i was feeling down or to shut up because I dont like my friends knowing when im feeling down or emo..meh we all have are days when we feel emo..I never said anything cuz I hate it when my friends feel bad or sympathetic for me,rather then drinking or doing drugs when I feel bad I work out. Tho i do drink but thats olny when im with my friends and were at a party or its the weekend.
Well i have said all I needed but I didnt do this so ppl can read it, I did it so i can get it out of my head and move on.